Healing Holiday

I fell into a little rut around Thanksgiving Holiday. For weeks, I had kept my mind and heart open for the upcoming face-off and calamity I had anticipated. I played them out (in different scenarios) over and over in my head. Then the dreadful week came sooner than expected, and it unfolded into a rather turbulent storm ---a much unplanned course to end 2008. It seemed like my life was on the brink to collapse from all fronts: my job, my 1.5 year relationship, and the acute possibilty of my all-around adored father battling cancer.

Entering into the start of my 30's, I think I learned a thing or two over the years. I've learned that during the bleak times hides some of the biggest opportunities to heal, grow, and rebuild into a stronger and happier person. I believe happiness is simply knowing and believing that "happy" is a state of mind --- a comfortable state of being. My master-key to everyday life is about being happy, even in the most unhappiest moments. There are many people who have engaged in my personal journey of happiness, a few people to thank and a few people to forget. At the same time I continue my life of happiness, I also continue deepening my need and my love for running.

My long work hours and solo evenings could easily caused me to slide into a mess, however, I once again turn to running as a safe-zone to recharge me, and more importantly to help me find my happiness. I learn to borrow from my past personal successes and running experiences to keep me pressing forward to better days awaiting for me.

I will need the longer milege these next weeks ahead. 50 miles this week. My rockstar coach Joe League was worried that he hadn't heard from me, and so he offered the perfect words of encouragement, "Marathon is 5 months out. Stay focused over the Holidays and don't let anyone/thing get you down."

This is indeed healing holiday time.

To be continued.................................................